is this LOVE? lyrics

music in the background: is this LOVE?
Sung and written by Ayumi Hamasaki

anata ga yasashiku mitsumeru shisen no
saki dewa hosoi kata wo shiteru
kanojo ga yasashiku shiawasesou na kao de
warainagara unazuiteta

nanika ga ookina oto wo tatenagara
kuzurete itta you na ki ga shita n' dakedo
miugoki dekizu tada tachitsukushiteta dake

doushite watashi ja nai no tte kokkei de kudaranai
toikake nante shinai kedo
watashi ga mita koto nai you na anata ga soko ni wa ite
tada tada tooku ni kanjita no
konna kimochi ittai nante ittara ii

anata ga tokidoki miseru kanashii me no
wake wo shitte shimatta kara

nanika shite ageru koto ga dekiru no wa
watashi demo nakute dareka demo nakute
tada hitori dake nante koto mo wakatta no

itsu kara anata ni konna ni
hikarete ita no nante
imagoro kidzuita furi shite
miesuita uso toka tsuite
gomakashite mita n' dakedo
tada tada yokei munashikute
konna kimochi wo hito wa koi da to yobu no kana

doushite watashi ja nai no tte kokkei de kudaranai
toikake nante shinai kedo
watashi ga mita koto nai you na anata ga soko ni wa ite
tooku ni kanjite shimatta no

itsu kara anata ni konna ni
hikarete ita no nante
imagoro kidzuita furi shite
miesuita uso toka tsuite
gomakashite mita n' dakedo
tada tada yokei munashikute
konna kimochi wo kitto koi da tte iu no ne

In the chair you are gazing at so sweetly, are her thin shoulders
Her face is so sweet and happy as she nods, laughing.

I felt like something was crumbling with a loud noise, but I couldn't move, all I could do was stand there

Why isn't it me? I won't ask that absurd, and pointless question, but I'd never seen you looking like you did then and you just felt so far away
What do I call these feelings?

Since I learned the reason for the sadness in your eyes sometimes
I also understood that it's not me who can do something for you, not someone else,
Only one specific person

I also knew that it's not me, or someone else who can do something for you
But only one person.

I pretended that I'd just realized how attracted I am to you
I tried to cover it with transparent lies, but it only made me feel even more empty
What are these feelings called?

Why isn't it me? I won't ask that absurd, and pointless question, but I'd never seen you looking like you did then and you just felt so far away
What do I call these feelings?

I pretended that I'd just realized how attracted I am to you
I tried to cover it with transparent lies, but it only made me feel even more empty
This must be what they call love.